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time to blog again.....kaoz...let me vent out something before i starts..that bitch 'F***" her la...she thinks she's big meh...ya...her two sagging papaya lo...idiotic lo...i helped papa to change his hp...cos he wants true tones..then ying change wif him....after changing i want to tell him then i think he had fallen asleep liao then i want to left a note for him then i didnt close the door mah...just a few sec nia lo...that bitch make noise...she really thinks that she the 'nu zhu ren' shit u la...never think n imagine lo...never will u be replace OK!!!!...argh...spoilt spot....
sunday i visit him...not knowing am i too sensitive??? just like what i told joey-sis i can sense that he wasnt that happy but he tried to make himself appear to be normal..but i really can sense it....i didnt ask him why by writing to him...hope that he will reply me...or...no need since he will be coming out soon...as his chances are quite high...yuppiee!!!!i have read joey-sis's blog..wahahah...ya..im happy when he said that im his 'siao' eh...but knowing that he got no choice mah...anyway im contented liao...seriously.....since the day he said he will be coming out soon...i start to have a very hard time at night...i know everyone says don too much hope...yes..i know..but who dont?? right..???i couldnt sleep at night...my mind keep playing a fool on me...making me feeling soo terrible...haiz...why am i so weak??? weakling...!!! i always think that life is sooo unfair...it will never to fair one...if u r born suay then forever suay lo...if not, u r lucky...haiz...some people r given many many chances yet they don cherish it...and some people...no matter how hard they tried and willing to change le...and they r NOT GIVEN A SINGLE CHANCE.....unfair....im really worried...i dont want to have the same experience and those emotional feelings that i had encountered...in 2003....its terrible...sometimes i wonder if i had the chance to fetch him that day...should i go?? if you r me...will u go??? of cos! i m the most willing one...but i scare he might think that im stressing him or trying to show what??? n if im able to go but i choose not to...i will sure regret..n just like J said...she will be touched if someone do this to her....well...touched is one of them but i don want him to think ......haiz...sianz...well..im very glad that my sis...frenz-KQ..C..J.....joey-sis n baby-sis..all of them keep encouraging me...helping me...especially B-sis..actually i thought we had drfit apart le...yet never lo...she keeps supporting me...and that night at 4y drinking then i know she's still so concern about me...and we really had many things in similar...
this week...quite slag...can relax...n...exams coming liao.....streSSsss again??? hahaha..good luck to all my frenz.....
sign off~ revising TQM..write to ah koh..cheer up man!!
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